Phases of the Moon
114 pages, Digest
$10
"Phases of the Moon #5
is a book-length zine by Stacey-Marie about being in a relationship
with an abusive alcoholic. A young woman in a relationship with an
abusive alcoholic man."
It's really beautiful. It's disturbing, smart, and good. The writing is fantastic.
It's memoir with interspersed quotes from other texts. I preferred
Stacey-Marie's words to the quotes, but I did value some quotes that
explained abuse bonding. They were insightful.
I grew up as a child of an alcoholic--I am familiar with alcoholism from
a child's perspective. I never thought about my mom's perspective very
deeply--I didn't dare.
So this zine was triggering for me. Just when I thought the story
couldn't get any more disturbing, it did. Around page 50, I felt sick.
Around page 80, I told Ming, "This zine is killing me."
(We were walking down the street, walking through sunlight, away from
the cafe where I'd been reading. I felt stuck in a nightmare,
disoriented, and unwell. But good writing can do that to me...)
And the ending is worth it. And I could relate to the speaker a lot.
These are two quotes I loved from toward the end, ideas I've thought
about over and over, through the years.
Was that my true self? What does a "true self" even mean if we can so easily change based on our surrounding environment?
and
I felt like if I accepted the disease model of alcoholism, then I
would have to accept that all the fucked-up behaviors resulting from
addiction were merely symptoms of a impersonal disease.
I noticed some repetition in the storytelling, but it seemed okay there--the repetition worked--that's how we think.
It's text-heavy but there's some visual art that definitely adds to the experience.
Overall I loved this zine and recommend it to anyone who's strong enough
to read about abuse. And I wish Stacey-Marie lots of readers and
success.
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Review by Laura-Marie
